Living Life, Within the Limits of Chronic Illness

Category: Meditation


The one thing that really helped me get through the tough few weeks I had leading up to my exam is practicing meditation. I’ve come across a couple of fantastic smartphone apps which have really helped me so I thought I’d share.

Andrew Johnson’s Relax Lite and Power Nap apps (definitely available for Android) are free and I downloaded them just to try. I’ve been suitably impressed by them and will now look into buying some of the other meditation apps Andrew Johnson offers.

The guided meditations in these apps are of perfect length to do during a break from revising or at the beginning of the day. Come the end of the meditation I feel relaxed and energised (now don’t take that too seriously – it doesn’t miraculously mean I can do everything I want!) Without them I think I would have been even more of a mess during those few weeks – before I started using the apps I came very close to giving up on my degree, the stress of recent events, combined with my health declining among other things, had me wondering why I ever thought it was a good idea and thinking it was an impossible feat.

But things changed. I can’t say it’s all thanks to the meditation apps but they certainly helped. They allowed me to take time out from constantly stressing, to relax and when I finished one of the meditations I felt calmer and more in control, positive about what I’m embarking on. It didn’t seem totally impossible like it did before the meditation.

All in all I honestly don’t know what state I’d be in now if I hadn’t chosen to try these apps in those few weeks. They are quite honestly some of the best meditation apps I have come across! Well worth a try if you’re feeling stressed or want to try your hand at meditation – anyone can do it.

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Well What Can I Say…?

Things seems to be improving, well at least with the infection. Almost finished the antibiotics (only one more to go!) and I am feeling better in one sense.

In another sense I know this has had a significant impact on the M.E. and that I am finding it difficult to do some everyday things which had been easier in recent years – getting dressed, having a shower, making a cuppa all now involve more rest afterwards as I find them so exhausting. At least with the infection hopefully cleared up I’m back to just having to deal with the M.E. The only trouble is, M.E. is a much more stubborn creature to fight!

The other night I felt overwhelmed by all this, it hit me like a ton of bricks that I really struggled to get changed into my pyjamas. I was close to tears at one point. But even after a terrible night’s sleep, I woke up feeling much calmer, positive and in control of the situation.

I have started practising meditation, as I think I’ve mentioned in a previous post. And being in touch with the breath and movement of the body as you breathe is really helping and I’m finding myself much more relaxed and at peace even when the pain is bad. Meditating helped me to get through the anxiety I felt when I was overwhelmed the other night, it cleared my mind and allowed me to focus on the important things. Not worry about the future but concentrate on the present moment.

Right now despite how daunting my uni module looks, everything seems achievable. I’m not saying things are going to be easy, because I know from previous experience that they often are not. However things do not look as difficult as they did the other day, when it seemed like everything was against me and doing the uni module would be almost impossible!

That’s it for now folks! Hope everyone is as well as possible right now.

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